Life at a Young Age…

My story began in middle school. I wasn’t sure how to control or cope with my obsessive behaviors. I soon came to realize that these behaviors were not considered normal. I soon came to realize the feelings were not the norm. The cycling of negative thoughts circled my brain. I couldn’t function. I had suicidal thoughts quite a bit. One day I thought maybe I’ll call a suicide hotline. I don’t remember actually dialing the number or even talking to anyone. I did realize at that point I wasn’t just going through puberty. I’m trying to be as open and honest as I can. But some things are just darn embarrassing. But apparently I hid my depression well. I kept a smile on my face and continued being the good kid. Even the well behaved children can be facing hard issues. We shouldn’t forget this. I think sometimes parents will focus on the bad child so much that perhaps the needs of the good child.

To be continued…. I must work a double. 🙂


Liebster Award

Liebster Award

I have been nominated for the Liebster Award Thanks so much to Barb for nominating me — Please check out Barb’s Blog, she’s an awesome writer who is writing excellent articles related to mental health. Go check out her site!

About the Liebster Award:

The Liebster Award is a fun way to recognise up and coming blogs, expand your audience and get to know your fellow bloggers all around the world.

The Rules Are:

Thank the blogger who gave you the award and link back to their blog. Give the award to 5-10 new bloggers who you appreciate. Leave a comment on their blog, letting them know that you have given them the awesome award!

Questions :

1. What movies do you like?

Anonymous (It’s a documentary)

2. What books do you like?

Self Help books

3. What music do you like?


4. What TV shows do you like?

It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia.

5. What types of food do you like?


6. Do you have pets?

Two dogs

7. What do you want readers to take away from your blog?

Nominee Questions:

  1. 1. If you could pick one thing you are most proud of about your blog, what would it be?

  2. 2. What kinds of self-care tips do you use while writing?

  3. 3. Describe your ideal writing space?

  4. 4. Write a 5 word tagline that you would put on your blog.

  5. 5. What drives you to write a blog on mental health?

  6. 6. What inspired you to blog?

Nominees Are :

Casey Elizabeth Dennis

Beckies Mental Mess

Roshonda N. Blackmon

Maranda Russell

Please visit them!!! All the blogs are inspired by mental health. They all are great resources.


Struggling with Depression

I’m struggling with my depression. To cope I am saying my affirmations out loud three times. Along with a lot of deep breaths. But this depression is getting to me. I’m feel as if my consciousness keeps repeating negative thoughts. At the moment I’ve been obsessing over the messages I read. They oh so nicely end my relationship of a year and some. I just thought you would better, understand my state of mind. In the beginning I felt numb. I felt nothing. I can’t think straight. I can hardly write without negative thoughts. I’m glad I’m working a lot lately. The key is staying as busy as I can. Any help tips?


Impulse Control Disorder

Impulse Control

Written by : keara423

From: 7 cups

Impulse Control Disorders

A largely ignored, cast-aside family of disorders that are faced quite commonly by people worldwide are Impulse Control Disorders, disorders that go largely underrepresented, even on mental health platforms such as this. People with these forms of disorders can feel alienated when people unaware come into contact with them. There is a significant amount of shame surrounding this subject, awareness is rarely spread, and not much work has put into preventing the stigma these people face. So, to prevent further harm to those in the community who suffer from said disorders, please read on to find out more about impulse control disorders.

What are Impulse Control Disorders?

Have you ever had an itch in public that you weren’t allowed to scratch? The sensation and tension of that itch built up over time and created stress until you seemingly couldn’t take it anymore. When you finally itch that scratch, there is a euphoric relief that takes place.

This is basically how an impulse control disorder feels.

It is an urge to engage in an unusual behavior, an immense impulse so strong that most people who live with one of these disorders become unaware of how often they do it subconsciously or cannot get through the day without giving in- similar to a compulsion a person with OCD wants to maintain.

5 Stages of Behavior

1. Impulse – the urge emerges

2. Stress – the tension builds as time goes on

3. Happiness – giving into the compulsion

4. Relief – tension is alleviated

5. Guilt – shame that giving in took place, tension begins again

Types of Impulse Control Disorders

– Intermittent Explosive

Sudden, regularly occurring, aggressive outbursts that can involve impulsive, violent, or angry behavior (domestic abuse, road rage, temper tantrums, etc.) These outbursts get in the way of regular life, tearing apart relationships, work opportunities, and yield significant consequences. These episodes usually occur with little to no warning and last upwards of 30 minutes in total.

– Kleptomania

Stealing continuously, uncontrollably, and repetitively, even when the object is not of value or use to the person. This can affect children from age 4 up to people who have reached adulthood and can get the person in serious legal and financial trouble if it is not addressed and treated. Kleptomaniacs experience mass amounts of guilt in most cases for what they have done and attempt to return items they have hoarded at home. This oftentimes leads to arrests.

– Pyromania

Purposeful fire-starting in order to achieve relief, gratification of an emotional or sexual nature, and a deep-seeded interest in fires in general. The pyromaniac is not an arsonist who may do it in fits of rebellion or for a gain of some kind- the act of setting the fires is simply an impulse they must fulfill to get relief. Pyromaniacs are very likely to also be suffering from depression.

– Trichotillomania

Involves the intentional pulling of hair in a repetitive fashion, resulting in an observable amount of hair loss. The hair loss usually results in social anxiety as they are ashamed of their appearance. This distress can also get in the way of relationships with others, work, and group outings. This is one of the most common impulse control disorders.

– Pathological Gambling

Gambling at a constant rate that regularly puts the person at risk. It becomes like an addiction of sorts and usually ends up tearing apart the person’s relationships and finances. It commonly leads to divorce and bankruptcy. It is most prevalent in younger men primarily, but women who hold this disorder begin acting destructively faster. They are also likely to get into legal trouble because they will go much farther than the confines of the law in order to fund the gambling. Suicide attempts are very common among carriers.

– Skin Picking

Tissue is damaged as a result of picking skin off on a regular basis. Picking skin usually takes places for several hours each day and commonly occurs on the face, but is also commonly done to other sections of the body (chest, legs, hands, neck, etc). This creates scars and sometimes infections. People who pick their skin usually feel extremely scared and ashamed in social situations, truly repulsed by the way they look.

– Compulsive Sexual Behavior

Sexual impulses that take over a person’s way of life, result in sexually deviant behavior, and become unable to be controlled. This one is extremely common compared to these other disorders and can result in the person getting into legal trouble. Pornography, fetishism, and using sex as a way to get through the day are common traits of this disorder. It can get them into financial trouble if they are hiring people to have sex with or purchasing lots of pornography. It can also be detrimental to their social life as others may see them as corrupt, gross, and dangerous which can sometimes cost them their job or end relationships that were once important to them.

– Compulsive Shopping

Though it isn’t recognized officially as a disorder, it is technically seen as a type of impulse control issue. This is when a person constantly shops, usually making regrettable purchases that are not necessary or affordable. There is a certain relief it brings which turns into shame as the buyer realizes what they have done. Most of the items bought are returned or unused and leave the person in debt. The amount of shopping usually ends up hurting relationships as they may be using a partner’s money to buy things and financial troubles when too much money is spent.

What causes these disorders?

It may be caused by genetics, being raised around abuse or violence, and unbalanced serotonin levels. If the person has a family history of these disorders, is a trauma survivor, is young, or is male, they have a higher chance of having one of these disorders as well. It may also coexist with prior mental conditions that aggravate these disorders like depression, GAD, and OCD.

How to help someone with an Impulse Control Disorder

Once you are aware that someone has one of these disorders, make sure to support them emotionally through this challenging time. Be sure to remain non-judgemental no matter how “crazy” the problem may seem. Show them that you care through conversation, acknowledgment of their sorrow, and checking up on them regularly.

Try to encourage this person to talk to engage in psychotherapy which will provide them ways to cope with their impulses. The most successful types of behavioral management may be habit reversal- a therapy which involves the person replacing their current impulse with a less harmful one, suggesting they see a psychiatrist to get medication that rectifies chemical imbalances that may be influencing their behavior, and placing said person in an impulse control facility so as to rehabilitate a person who is extremely out of control and needs to be surveilled and trained to function in society correctly again.

Even giving their doctor a note or article about these disorders could be a great first step if the person is scared or unsure of how to start getting treatment. Support groups are also available online and locally if finances are an issue


Schedule = My homework

I got a bit anxious and depressed today. Due to the homework my therapist gave me. She asked me to right a schedule for myself. I know many of you will laugh. But I have a hard time sticking to a strict schedule because of my ever changing mood. I monitored myself today. I found myself posting positive pictures on Instagram and Twitter.



I’ve been trying to find others interested in mental health issues. I also have a desire to write another piece for The Mighty. I suppose I have a good goal. But I’m still baffled about how I will stick to this schedule. Supposedly, having a schedule is great for your mental health.