Struggling with Depression

I’m struggling with my depression. To cope I am saying my affirmations out loud three times. Along with a lot of deep breaths. But this depression is getting to me. I’m feel as if my consciousness keeps repeating negative thoughts. At the moment I’ve been obsessing over the messages I read. They oh so nicely end my relationship of a year and some. I just thought you would better, understand my state of mind. In the beginning I felt numb. I felt nothing. I can’t think straight. I can hardly write without negative thoughts. I’m glad I’m working a lot lately. The key is staying as busy as I can. Any help tips?

Published by Jeannette_PTSD

Hi, My name is Jeannette I'm 32. I'm diagnosed with Depression, Anxiety, Adhd, Panic Attacks, Bipolar2, PTSD and Borderline Personality Disorder. Im here to help others understand what life like now with these disorders they have.

89 thoughts on “Struggling with Depression

  1. Hi. Sorry to hear that you’re struggling at the moment. First thing I would say is to make sure you’re getting all the possible support you can from your mental health team. I can’t imagine how awful a deep depression feels but the things which help me with my low moods are:
    1 Exercise – helps me feel better and tires me out so I can sleep and get a break from my mind churning and ruminating.
    2 Listen to music – I can get lost in the music I love and again get a break from my mind.
    3 Reading – I like to get lost in a book, again gives me a break from my mind.
    4 Break the day into manageable chunks – don’t try and deal with the whole day at once, just get through the next hour or so and then the next.
    5 Write lists of what’s bothering me – this lets me put some things in perspective and sometimes helps improve things. Writing is also my way of talking about things. I find it hard to talk about stuff to people but writing helps me.

    Hope you find a way out of the mire soon. Sending you very best wishes from snowy Manchester!

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      1. Last week, I wrote about the differences between the 2. Bipolar 2 episodes of depression can last anywhere between 8-13 weeks.
        The best thing you can do for your self is to keep as busy as possible. Read, do adult coloring books, write, clean, anything to keep your mind focused on something other than the depression. However, contact your therapist and/or doctor to tweak your meds if it gets worst.

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  2. I’m sorry you’re going through this right now; I am, too, so I can relate. I think the affirmations and staying busy will certainly help with negative thoughts and that lack of motivation we sometimes get when depressed.

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  3. I just wanted to echo the thoughts above really – I’m so sorry you’re going through all of this, and struggling so much with depression (of which I can relate). I tend to use business to distract myself, though that’s not always the best of ideas because then you can end up pushing everything down, wearing yourself out and not ‘dealing’ with what’s going on. I would say to maybe ‘turn off’ from things for a while, get away from the messages, turn off social media and everything and just rest, read, watch something moderately tolerable (or even enjoyable, but there are times even the best series or films can’t raise your spirits). Try to remember that as much as it won’t feel like it right now, this too will pass. These experiences are stepping stones and learning curves in making you more resilient. Sending a hug your way. ♥
    Caz x

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  4. It sounds like you are doing everything you need right now. Take good self-care and remember this (these) feelings and thoughts won’t last. I had to learn to remind myself that I can ride this wave…and the next.

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  5. I’m in the same boat as you. I felt fine for two weeks and my depression is back, putting a damper on everything. I’m keeping busy, cleaning up my space, doing things that are supposed to bring me joy, playing with my cat, keeping a routine of leaving the house, working out, and talking to people who understand (my family and my therapist). I’m not sure if you’re seeing a psychiatrist but that would be my next step if things got worse- adjusting medications work really well for some people. Like what everyone says, put yourself first right now. Sending you lots of hugs!

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  6. Here is a virtual hug 🤗. Now that that is over and out of the way.. I know intense depression all too well.. I would second the comment about discussing your meds and just remind yourself of the times that were really bad that you made it out the other side just fine. I always have to remind myself that eventually we pull through hope you feel better. Take care of yourself first…

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  7. Remember it will pass. Write out your pain and rip it and throw it away. Then affirm .by writing 7 times or 21 times a day. And be grateful and write gratitude daily. Do you meditate .. it will help. Even if you cant quiten your mibd the words help. I share meditations weekly, i shared one today.

    You are strong, you are positive, this will not last, all is well, you will get through this and be stronger at the end. You are peaceful, calm and strong. You can and will do this. You will and all will be well.

    Hugs 🤗

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  8. Not to preach to you because I hate when people do that to me but, the bible says “Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. Philippians 4:8. Thinking about negative things is not a good feeling as a matter of fact, it will have you second guessing your purpose and life if you let it go too deep. I think working is great, but what happens when you settle down and you’re not working. You have to surround yourself with positive minded people and if there are none then you have to make yourself think of the positive things about yourself, write them down – every time something negative comes to your mind, write a positive thing in its place. Anytime you want to focus on a negative situation; think about a positive situation, maybe something that happened to you that made you feel really happy, or find a website such as “goodnewsnetwork” in which displays a lot of stories of positivity. Pray, seek meditation; these are two things that have really helped me – especially the first one. I’m praying things level out for you soon. =)

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  9. It will pass, depression is horrible and the best thing is to just take it easy and do things one at a time. I try and go on a lot of walks or if my anxiety isn’t bad, go to the gym. I’ll also write down how I feel and then get rid of it. Take the time to look after yourself. I know it’s difficult but this will pass and it will be ok 🙂 You can do this! ♥️

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  10. I feel for you—it was suggested to me to do expressive writing for 15 minutes, morning and night, then through you notes away. It’s expressing your feelings in a fluid manner, getting them out of your system and then don’t read them in order to avoid trying to analyze what you’ve written.
    And, be kind to yourself. Take care

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  11. What I found to help myself cope through all of the negativity and hopelessness I felt was to ‘nourish’ myself. This can be just as simple as having a shower and washing your hair, moisturising your skin or soaking in the bathtub with some sweet smelling incense or candles burning.

    It’s all about making sure that you feel good and comfortable on the outside, I found with me it relieved a lot of anxiety and restlessness when I had something to do that I knew would make me feel better even if just on the outside. Taking care of myself on the outside, as well as deep breathing and mindfulness for the inside, made everything a lot more bearable.

    I hope you start feeling better soon.

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  12. Just hang in there. I myself too am going through depression along with severe anxiety. It feels like an endless battle. And no I haven’t overcome it but I plan to. Just lean onto the support of those you love and keep working towards your goals. That’s the best we can do right? Happiness is sure to come!

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  13. In my experience, it’s detrimental to wallow in a bad space. Get up, get out, enjoy the sun. As long as you are still here in this realm, it means that you have a passion or purpose to fulfill. I’ve found that focusing on that gives you a since of accomplishment and peace that eclipses depression. Just keep growing and living. This phase will pass. Hope that helps you feel better!

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  14. Thanks for following my blog. Just dropped by to see yours and am really sorry to see that you are suffering from depression. I know it well. It is like a black dog that nobody wants. I have sometimes experienced such low mood that I don’t know how I’ll get through the next few minutes or hour, but then I do and my perspective shifts. Going out for a walk or doing something different from usual can help. I have a list of things I need done and on bad days I can’t manage much more than the dishes and washing, but at least that’s something. And swallowing my pride and going to see the GP about getting help has also been important.

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  15. Sending thoughts and a cyber hug. When I’m bad, I clean. And then I look for things to clean. Last resort is cleaning the windows! Try baking whilst listening to the radio or keep a tv on so that you’re a part of the world and not huddled up in your own world. Best is to take a little walk outside with a friend you can confide in. Have a good weekend and keep us posted … x

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  16. ALWAYS and i mean it, ALWAYS remember that it is perfectly fine to keep yourself on top. Who will if not you? At the beginning try to stop the negative thoughts that you have and try to control them. Catharsis is a very important process . Take help. Say it out loud . Scream it even if that helps. It will be slow and will take a lot of practice but it might help. The biggest thing is to NEVER give up on yourself.

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  17. Awww sorry to hear this. Another way to over come depression is to be in charge of our thoughts and feelings… take over with positive thoughts as don’t pay attention to the negative thoughts… it’s like a muscle the more we train it the bigger it will become. So train the positive thoughts not the negative. I’ve written a post on this subject, https://mummanopoly.com/2018/01/08/focus-on-the-inner-you/ xxx hope it helps a little 💋💋 you’ll get better hunni, I have high hope!

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  19. Rustysiren said it best. There is a very basic need for each of us to make self-care a primary act. Only by being in a good place, in one’s own space, can a person make a difference with others. You are such an amazing soul, Jeannette. Please care for #1!

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