Boredom is my enemy. I seem to let myself get wrapped up in thoughts that are unhelpful. Then I’m calling you. You send it to voicemail. This angers me. Thus I’ll call again. Out of pear frustration and a little bit of “sticking it to the man”. I remember this time when you were ignoring a call. You told me “my trick is to just let it ring”. Haha Well I’ll show you what letting it ring really means! I’m both angry and hurt he deliberately ditched my call. My emotions seem to come out sideways in these situations. Meaning, I get angry I want to show the other person they hurt me. Since I’m quite sensitive, I’m quickly triggered to feel hurt.
I believe if I used some CBT skills it may help me view this whole situation differently. Sometimes my emotions swipe me up. Instead of thinking about what I’m doing or saying, I do what the emotion wants. I givein to my strong feeling. I need to not do this. It hurts relationships.