I seemingly run happily into the arms of toxic relationships. I can be found putting guys on a pedestal. Unknowingly to myself, I felt insecure. Thus I would choose a dominant partner… possibly a narcissists. Leading to my thoughts being smothered by my negative inner choice constantly questioning what I choose to say. This alternate reality, I call home. I’m dropped into this other world when Im unable to cope with the here and now. In this special place boundaries are understood and not crossed. It’s where you feel safe and loved. As I look back on the experiences felt realistic but dreamlike. Strange huh?
I tell myself I posses two classification of superpowers, your laughing. I understand. Possessing the ability to black certain situations out is pretty neat. I have this capability when a degrading situation makes me feel like less of a person or unloved. The situation has to be pretty severe.