depression, PTSD, Panic Attack's

It’s normal for me to live in an alternative reality

I seemingly run happily into the arms of toxic relationships. I can be found putting guys on a pedestal. Unknowingly to myself, I felt insecure. Thus I would choose a dominant partner… possibly a narcissists. Leading to my thoughts being smothered by my negative inner choice constantly questioning what I choose to say. This alternate reality, I call home. I’m dropped into this other world when Im unable to cope with the here and now. In this special place boundaries are understood and not crossed. It’s where you feel safe and loved. As I look back on the experiences felt realistic but dreamlike. Strange huh?

I tell myself I posses two classification of superpowers, your laughing. I understand. Possessing the ability to black certain situations out is pretty neat. I have this capability when a degrading situation makes me feel like less of a person or unloved. The situation has to be pretty severe.

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5 thoughts on “It’s normal for me to live in an alternative reality

  1. One relationship that will never leave you feeling less of a person is one with Jesus Christ that died on the cross paying the price for all your sins,setting you free from it’s bondage. Accept Jesus as your Lord and Savior. He doesn’t wants you to perish but to have everlasting life. He loves you so much. He’s the ONLY way to heaven. There’s NO other way. Come to Jesus. He’ll mend your heart from all past relationships and bless you with a spouse that would love you just as God does. Blessings to you. I pray for comfort and peace for you! Keep strong. πŸ™‚

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  2. I stopped with the same problem as yours because looked like those relationships never worked so far. I learned love myself more than anyone in this world. Looked like I am shifted to another level. πŸ˜‰πŸ˜‰πŸ˜‰πŸ™ŒπŸ»πŸ™ŒπŸ»πŸ™ŒπŸ»

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