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Quote from “12 Ways You’re Holding Yourself Back From Your Best Life” By BRIANNA WIEST

When you focus too much on the idea of how things should be, you start losing your concept of how they are. Not everything will be picturesque, and that’s not just a fact of life you have to begrudgingly accept, it’s a reality that often you’ll be grateful for — as happiness is how you create the pieces of a life that feels good to you, not how closely you adhere to ideas and images of life that other people desire.

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12 Ways You’re Holding Yourself Back From Your Best Life (Without Even Realizing It) ByBRIANNA WIEST

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12 Ways You’re Holding Yourself Back From Your Best Life (Without Even Realizing It)

ByBRIANNA WIEST
Sept 2 2015

When we concoct ideas and routines and lives that we think are best, we leave out a lot of the details that actually matter. We focus on how things appear rather than how they feel, and confuse their “feeling good” for “being good.” We think that the best is how we make ourselves most comfortable and “happy,” rather than most fully realized. We forego genuine health — of body and mind — for faster, seemingly more effective alternatives. We can’t actually do the hard work in every aspect of our lives because we simply don’t have enough energy. Rather than letting ourselves slack where importance doesn’t fall, we compensate in feigned and disingenuous ways. Here, all the ways you probably don’t realize you’re sabotaging your best life (and how to turn it around, ASAP):

You Have An Idea Of What Your “Best Life” Should Look Like On The Outside, But Not What It Would Feel Like On The Inside, In The Day-to-Day
Most people assume they’re unhappy because they have something external, they don’t understand that their overall contentment is not casual, it’s a manner of perception. So when we go to craft ideas of what our best lives would look like, we focus on what pretty pictures would ease all the internal discomfort, rather than the actual solutions.

Uncertain, You Seek Advice From Numerous Friends
Feeling uncertain is not a call to source everybody you know for their opinions, that only feeds the problem more. Feeling uncertain is a call to truly listen to what you’re trying to say to yourself, not further disconnect from that based on what other people would perceive.Search Bustle…
12 Ways You’re Holding Yourself Back From Your Best Life (Without Even Realizing It)
ByBRIANNA WIEST
Sept 2 2015
When we concoct ideas and routines and lives that we think are best, we leave out a lot of the details that actually matter. We focus on how things appear rather than how they feel, and confuse their “feeling good” for “being good.” We think that the best is how we make ourselves most comfortable and “happy,” rather than most fully realized. We forego genuine health — of body and mind — for faster, seemingly more effective alternatives. We can’t actually do the hard work in every aspect of our lives because we simply don’t have enough energy. Rather than letting ourselves slack where importance doesn’t fall, we compensate in feigned and disingenuous ways. Here, all the ways you probably don’t realize you’re sabotaging your best life (and how to turn it around, ASAP):
You Have An Idea Of What Your “Best Life” Should Look Like On The Outside, But Not What It Would Feel Like On The Inside, In The Day-to-Day
Most people assume they’re unhappy because they have something external, they don’t understand that their overall contentment is not casual, it’s a manner of perception. So when we go to craft ideas of what our best lives would look like, we focus on what pretty pictures would ease all the internal discomfort, rather than the actual solutions.
Uncertain, You Seek Advice From Numerous Friends
Feeling uncertain is not a call to source everybody you know for their opinions, that only feeds the problem more. Feeling uncertain is a call to truly listen to what you’re trying to say to yourself, not further disconnect from that based on what other people would perceive.

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*Shine* Stay Motivated

🚀 Anddd we made it—happy first Friday of 2019. Still pumped about those fresh goals? Today’s Shine will help you hack ’em for Future You.

Want to learn more or check your intention?

Studies show that we view our ‘Future Self’ as a stranger—not, you know, ourselves a few days from now. But if you make an effort to connect with Future You, you can help ’em out.

Today, find 1 way to hack your goal for Future Jen. 🙌 Ex. Always late to the gym? Pick your workout clothes the night before. Forget to save $ monthly? Automate it.

Make it easier for Future You to stay motivated.

P.s. Why every goal you set should start with a *why* 👏

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Adhd much…. Haha

II do stupid things. Things that seem illogical to the everyday person. At time’s my mind can see from one perception. We all learn things from a young age. But what if you never attempted to understand. Or a taboo thing in everyone else eyes doesn’t appear that way in your eyes. You don’t know of any other way to get your needs met.I don’t talk directly about my issue because I understand I will be judged. It’s

It’s two am… Outside walking through across walk into a dark whole full of bounce bunny’s hopping about. The pitch blackness which makes it harder to write and walk at the same time.

My job let me go with the holiday help. My body isn’t moving. My anxiety is here and in full swing. Breathing in and out completely has been hard.

But there is hope. I can possible land a 30 hour a week job. I’m being chill and understanding for the most part. My manager told me I was laid off by xing out everyday I work. I’m just a silly girl. When I say “silly” it’s a nice way of telling myself or others that the situation or person is appearing to be extremely stupid.

Im not coping well today. The anxious feelings are constant. All I want is a moment to feel happy. So I artificially induce it with marijuana.

Life isn’t bad. I’ve gone through worse. The looming feeling of being utterly shocked so ….I felt the same feeling the night of trauma. Honestly it’s not an emotion I’m not fond of. It’s a constant feeling of numbing an event out. Body part aren’t functioning well. I’m in shut down mode. But don’t worry I’m only resting. 🙂 not Defeated.

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*Shine* Feelings (meta-emotions)

😐 ‘I should feel this, not that.’ Familiar, Jen? Holidays = should-heavy. But all feels are valid. Today, notice your ‘meta-emotions.’

Want to learn more or check your intention?🌟 Jen’s Daily Intention🌟

Today, remind yourself: It’s OK to feel motivated by your goal to get present *and* daunted/nervous/tired/behind/etc. You’re more than one emotion.

It’s human to feel bad/good/weird about your feelings—especially if they feel ‘off’ for the moment (ex. holidays must. be. happy!). That’s your ‘meta-emotions’ in action.
Next time meta-emotions pop up: Be kind to yourself & get curious. 🤔 Think: What am I feeling? Why am I feeling it? Then, grant yourself permission to feel, even if it feels ‘off.’

Your emotions are what make you human, Jen. Embrace ’em.

P.s. Oxford Dictionary named ‘toxic’ the word of 2018—here’s what you need to know about ‘toxic positivity’

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Who I am… Today in the Moment

I am antithetical.This can be characterized as being directly opposed or contrasted, mutually incompatible. I proclaim myself to be a exceedingly unique person.

I feel safe outside in front of my family’s door. Im squatting as I puff on my anxiety relief kicks in for a few. I use to be alert every second I sat out here. I was able to hear anything moving in my sight. It felt like a super power.

I lay in my bed with a puffy soft pink blanket. I have a mini Christmas tree with little light; illuminates my room.