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Anxiety. Depression. Moving Out. Scary shit.

On a scale 1 to 10. Ten being the highest. I’m at a 7. It’s hard to breath. My stomach tenses. Constantly attempting to catch my breath. Feeling nauseous. My neck refuses to release the pressure I feel in my neck and my head.

Im struggling with my depression at the moment. I must move out in a month. But at the moment I am seeking out a job. It’s scary and different.

I keep failing.

I suppose it just takes me a few extra tries to get things right. 🙂

I’m just scared to be on my own. I have a hard time taking care.


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*Shine* Worries

☔️ You control your worries, —Fyre Festival-sized ones *and* pesky Thurs stress. Categorize them with this 1-min visualization.

Want to learn more or check your intention?

The likelihood of all your worries *actually* coming true? Not as high as it feels. Research shows that questioning if a worry could actually happen can help you break out of a thought spiral.

Today, categorize worries by *probability* to see what’s worth your mental energy.

Category 1 = Highly Unlikely (Meteor hits ya ☄️)
Category 2 = Possible But Not Likely
Category 3 = Likely
Category 4 = Highly Likely
Category 5 = Inevitable (Fyre Festival failing 🥪)

You can challenge your worries, Jen.

P.s. More ways to worry *better* 🏖️

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*Shine* Negativity

🤔 ‘I could try, but I’d just mess up.’ Negativity calling the shots, ? Use this 1 Q to decide from a place of hope—not fear.

Studies show we’re hardwired with a ‘negativity bias.’ What that means: We think more about a potential negative outcome than a positive one when we make decisions.

Today, if you’re making a decision, challenge your negativity bias by asking: Am I deciding from a place of hope or fear?

Ex. That new task at work. Fear: Nope, it might go wrong. Hope: Sure, it *could* go right.

Remember, : ‘Hope is a form of planning’ – Gloria Steinem.

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Quote from “12 Ways You’re Holding Yourself Back From Your Best Life” By BRIANNA WIEST

When you focus too much on the idea of how things should be, you start losing your concept of how they are. Not everything will be picturesque, and that’s not just a fact of life you have to begrudgingly accept, it’s a reality that often you’ll be grateful for — as happiness is how you create the pieces of a life that feels good to you, not how closely you adhere to ideas and images of life that other people desire.

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12 Ways You’re Holding Yourself Back From Your Best Life (Without Even Realizing It) ByBRIANNA WIEST

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12 Ways You’re Holding Yourself Back From Your Best Life (Without Even Realizing It)

ByBRIANNA WIEST
Sept 2 2015

When we concoct ideas and routines and lives that we think are best, we leave out a lot of the details that actually matter. We focus on how things appear rather than how they feel, and confuse their “feeling good” for “being good.” We think that the best is how we make ourselves most comfortable and “happy,” rather than most fully realized. We forego genuine health — of body and mind — for faster, seemingly more effective alternatives. We can’t actually do the hard work in every aspect of our lives because we simply don’t have enough energy. Rather than letting ourselves slack where importance doesn’t fall, we compensate in feigned and disingenuous ways. Here, all the ways you probably don’t realize you’re sabotaging your best life (and how to turn it around, ASAP):

You Have An Idea Of What Your “Best Life” Should Look Like On The Outside, But Not What It Would Feel Like On The Inside, In The Day-to-Day
Most people assume they’re unhappy because they have something external, they don’t understand that their overall contentment is not casual, it’s a manner of perception. So when we go to craft ideas of what our best lives would look like, we focus on what pretty pictures would ease all the internal discomfort, rather than the actual solutions.

Uncertain, You Seek Advice From Numerous Friends
Feeling uncertain is not a call to source everybody you know for their opinions, that only feeds the problem more. Feeling uncertain is a call to truly listen to what you’re trying to say to yourself, not further disconnect from that based on what other people would perceive.Search Bustle…
12 Ways You’re Holding Yourself Back From Your Best Life (Without Even Realizing It)
ByBRIANNA WIEST
Sept 2 2015
When we concoct ideas and routines and lives that we think are best, we leave out a lot of the details that actually matter. We focus on how things appear rather than how they feel, and confuse their “feeling good” for “being good.” We think that the best is how we make ourselves most comfortable and “happy,” rather than most fully realized. We forego genuine health — of body and mind — for faster, seemingly more effective alternatives. We can’t actually do the hard work in every aspect of our lives because we simply don’t have enough energy. Rather than letting ourselves slack where importance doesn’t fall, we compensate in feigned and disingenuous ways. Here, all the ways you probably don’t realize you’re sabotaging your best life (and how to turn it around, ASAP):
You Have An Idea Of What Your “Best Life” Should Look Like On The Outside, But Not What It Would Feel Like On The Inside, In The Day-to-Day
Most people assume they’re unhappy because they have something external, they don’t understand that their overall contentment is not casual, it’s a manner of perception. So when we go to craft ideas of what our best lives would look like, we focus on what pretty pictures would ease all the internal discomfort, rather than the actual solutions.
Uncertain, You Seek Advice From Numerous Friends
Feeling uncertain is not a call to source everybody you know for their opinions, that only feeds the problem more. Feeling uncertain is a call to truly listen to what you’re trying to say to yourself, not further disconnect from that based on what other people would perceive.

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*Shine* Stay Motivated

🚀 Anddd we made it—happy first Friday of 2019. Still pumped about those fresh goals? Today’s Shine will help you hack ’em for Future You.

Want to learn more or check your intention?

Studies show that we view our ‘Future Self’ as a stranger—not, you know, ourselves a few days from now. But if you make an effort to connect with Future You, you can help ’em out.

Today, find 1 way to hack your goal for Future Jen. 🙌 Ex. Always late to the gym? Pick your workout clothes the night before. Forget to save $ monthly? Automate it.

Make it easier for Future You to stay motivated.

P.s. Why every goal you set should start with a *why* 👏

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Adhd much…. Haha

II do stupid things. Things that seem illogical to the everyday person. At time’s my mind can see from one perception. We all learn things from a young age. But what if you never attempted to understand. Or a taboo thing in everyone else eyes doesn’t appear that way in your eyes. You don’t know of any other way to get your needs met.I don’t talk directly about my issue because I understand I will be judged. It’s

It’s two am… Outside walking through across walk into a dark whole full of bounce bunny’s hopping about. The pitch blackness which makes it harder to write and walk at the same time.

My job let me go with the holiday help. My body isn’t moving. My anxiety is here and in full swing. Breathing in and out completely has been hard.

But there is hope. I can possible land a 30 hour a week job. I’m being chill and understanding for the most part. My manager told me I was laid off by xing out everyday I work. I’m just a silly girl. When I say “silly” it’s a nice way of telling myself or others that the situation or person is appearing to be extremely stupid.

Im not coping well today. The anxious feelings are constant. All I want is a moment to feel happy. So I artificially induce it with marijuana.

Life isn’t bad. I’ve gone through worse. The looming feeling of being utterly shocked so ….I felt the same feeling the night of trauma. Honestly it’s not an emotion I’m not fond of. It’s a constant feeling of numbing an event out. Body part aren’t functioning well. I’m in shut down mode. But don’t worry I’m only resting. 🙂 not Defeated.