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Two Types of Disassociating

It’s not like I’m just started therapy. I’ve been going for years. I’ve been working on my mental health for a while now. Mental health issues are real and my issue arises with money.

People with bipolar need someone to hold their money. But it seems like this is enabling.

When I deal with money I dissasociate with my money is placed in my hands. I get anxious and overly stressed. Thus I Dissociate

Dissociation is any of a wide array of experiences from mild detachment from immediate surroundings to more severe detachment from physical and emotional experiences. … At the nonpathological end of the continuum, dissociation describes common events such as daydreaming. There are two kinds.

Depersonalization – experiences of unreality or detachment from one’s mind, self or body. People may feel as if they are outside their bodies and watching events happening to them. Subjects feel they have changed and that the world has become vague, dreamlike, less real, lacking in significance or being outside reality while looking in

Derealization – experiences of unreality or detachment from one’s surroundings. People may feel as if things and people in the world around them are not real.

I get so stressed over money that I dissasociate.

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The Struggle is Real!

Friend: How are you?

Me: Im okay. Im in the process of searching for a place to stay. Watching a little survivor on hulu. As well as searching for this therapy app. Its called “BettetHelp” app. The first therapist I spoke with was only a mental health counselor. Personally I continually struggle with quite a few mental health issues. Fortunately, I was able to to switch to a new therapist. This time I hit the jackpot! I was paired with a psychologist. I felt as if she truly understood the study of mindfulness, meditation and an overal feeling that she truly could understand the pain and undless suffering that mental illness brings.

It is real.

I have no idea why such a simple question lead me to an enormous answer. I thought my answer to his question was sloppy, but as I continued to read it. I felt as if sense


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Boundaries between my parents and I

My relationship with my mother is odd and dysfunctional. She feels as if she has the power to tell me what to do. Such as, demanding me to wash the floor. I had to reveal my own personal boundaries at this point. I told my mother i would wash the floor. But after my nap. Its a real issue. My mom is so nice in person.
Sadly, she’d remarked on my ability to go to college. I was told I wasn’t smart enough. Its just sad. Please never tell your own child.

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My life’s Ups and today’s downs.

The truth of the matter is I’m living in my van. My parents believe that I’m old enough and I should be able to sustain living on my own. Even though I struggle daily with different symptoms from the five mental health issues I posses. My parents blame the easy fix they believe I should not smoke marijuana. Although test have shown its ability to help those with bipolar as well as PTSD. I am not a drug addict. I should not be placed in a drug rehab. These parents of mine are grasping for the easy solution. But ladies and gentlemen Mental Health issues happen to the body without our knowledge. I Choose not to use drugs. It was always offered but I stayed away from them. Unfortunately, as I am trying to heal… I find that if you have mental health issue you are then mixed with drug addicts. I never choose to have these issues. Don’t treat me like I am a drug addict. I continually said no to the many offers I’ve received.

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*Shine* Release Those Worries

🚗 What do your car, couch, & toilet have in common? They can all act as a ‘third space.’ How to find yours.

Stress from your 9-5 can creep into *all* parts of your day. But creating a ‘neutral zone’ to release those worries can help you reclaim your vibe.

Today, create a ‘third space’—a place where you intentionally hit reset. Ex. Your commute home, your garage, front door. Use it as a trigger to mentally switch gears.

You deserve the space to unwind. ☺️

P.s. Shake off stress smarter 👋 with these 4 tips

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*Shine* Under Pressure

🎤 ‘Under Pressure’ feel like your Tuesday theme song, Jen? Let’s change that 🙂 Call out real v. *imagined* pressure with this list.

We’re pros at throwing ‘shoulds’ & ‘musts’ at ourselves (ex. I *should* be the perfect employee, I *must* finish my entire to-do list)—but it can stir up pressure that isn’t real or helpful.

🗒 Today, create a ‘pressure list’ to check yo’ stress.
1. Write a list of all the pressure you’re feeling
2. Label each one as ‘real’ (is this a legit expectation from you/someone else?) or ‘imagined’ (is this expectation just unrealistic?)

Remind yourself: ‘I don’t have to carry *all* this pressure.’

P.s. The subtle difference between ‘pressure’ and ‘stress’

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*Shine* You Can Do Big Things

🗣️ ‘I can do ___, but I could never do ____.’ Spoiler alert: You can do big things. Believing that is step 1. Shed self-doubt this week with this mantra.

Want to learn more or check your intention?

It’s easy to talk yourself out of goals because of fear & worry. But research shows shifting our ‘self-efficacy’—or how *capable* we feel—can help push us forward.

Today, remember your power by thinking: ‘I can do big things.’ And recall 1 difficult thing you’ve overcome in the past year to prove it. 🥊

You’re so capable, Jen.

P.s. Reconnect with your *authentic* self with these 4 steps